Thank you....

For the many of you that already know.. Thank you so much for your thoughts, prayers, messages, & especially the cookies. They have meant so much to Chad & I both. We are doing pretty well in my opinion. I know that next week and after will be much harder though. So I ask that you all keep us in your thoughts and prayers in the future.
And for those of you that have no idea what I am talking about... The appointment last week that I was so upset about couldn't have been any worse. I was told by Dr Egley that our baby has cystic hygroma and non immune hydrops. This means that 1- there are giant cysts growing from the back of the neck and 2- the body and organs are retaining fluids. The end result is the baby has no chance at survival outside of the womb and very little inside of the womb. He said I could either deliver immediately or wait as long as I needed. Well, I wasn't ready to go right then, I needed to sort things out and letting Chad know what was going on was probably necessary too. Chad & I talked about things over the weekend and Chad wanted to do it as soon as possible, I wanted to wait just a week. I needed to prepare without putting it off too long. We met with Dr Boyd Tuesday morning to have everything explained. We both felt so much better after this. We got so many questions answered. Dr Boyd agreed with waiting a week. So I go in Tuesday at 6 am to start inducing. He is hopeful that things will progress quickly, but nature will make that call.

No news on the mystery baby

Well, I went to the Dr for aNOTHER sono today. The mystery baby continues to be just that. The midwife for some reason or another looked at the sono for LESS than 30 seconds and said I can't see anything, I am sending you to the specialist. Now maybe I was already frustrated but my thought is she didn't even give it a decent try. So now after paying for 2 $400 sonos, I get to go to the specialist and pay for an $800 sono! I don't know but I am getting really frustrated about 1. I STILL haven't seen my doctor 2. I feel like the midwife has never spent more than 3 minutes in the room with me after I wait for more than an hour 3. I have to pay THREE deductibles and 20% of 3 sonos and whatever other nonsense that the midwife isn't capable of doing. So I go Friday afternoon and I WILL NOT LEAVE until I have a due date and know the sex.

Evan de Mello

I sent an email to many of you a week or so ago about Evan de Mello. He is an amazing little boy with a very sad story. I have been following his story for about 2 months now and am just amazed both at him, his parents, and what all of the thousands of people that have been praying for him have accomplished. About a week ago the doctors warned his parents they couldn't do anything else for him medically. Well, all of the extra prayers are working and we need to keep it up. Evans birthday is coming up and instead of gifts, a friend of the family has made an appeal for anyone that can to donate $5 in hopes of raising $4000 for his 4th birthday. Make sure you read the journal and some of the guestbook entries, it will make you realize all that you have to be thankful for. I think they have really changed my outlook on a lot of things. Well please visit this website and pray hard for Evan and the de Mello family. www.cotaforevand.com